The story behind this song
The apartment cleared out in April, the records still alphabetized the way he liked, the chair by the window angled toward the light where he got thin. A mug with a chipped handle that couldn't be washed clean of him. A phone number a thumb won't delete. He should be here arguing about this song — not becoming a name to be learned and kept. At twenty-five there were more funerals than weddings, a whole generation laid out across a field of stitched panels, every square a kitchen, a laugh, an ordinary Tuesday.
No "better place" here; he should be in this one. The only comfort that holds is the needle: his name sewn loud into the quilt by the hands that loved him, so the world keeps saying it. If you can't keep the body, you keep the name.
For the friend whose name we stitch, and say out loud, and refuse to lose.
Lyrics
your records still in the order you liked.
toward the light where you got thin.
I kept the mug with the chip on the handle,
couldn't wash the last of you off the rim.
Your number's still saved in my old phone —
I can't make my thumb hit delete.
You should be here arguing this song with me,
not a name I'm learning to keep.
you should be here, in this one, with me —
Every letter by hand, every stitch a year
I don't get to spend with you here.
If I can't keep your body, my friend,
I'll keep your name on the quilt.
more than we ever went to a wedding or a fair.
I learned the walk to the hospice hallway,
learned which nurse would actually care.
They tried to bury you quiet, unnamed,
leave you off of the family stone —
so I'm stitching you loud into fabric,
so you're never, ever unknown.
you should be here, in this one, with me —
Every letter by hand, every stitch a year
I don't get to spend with you here.
If I can't keep your body, my friend,
I'll keep your name on the quilt.
a generation laid out on the ground —
every square a kitchen, a laugh, a Tuesday,
a person somebody can't put down.
So many empty chairs by so many windows.
So I say the names out loud.
I say the names out loud.
Every letter by hand, every stitch a year
I don't get to spend with you here.
If I can't keep your body, my friend,
I'll keep your name on the quilt.
Your name in my hands. Your name. Enough.
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